D on Sunny days

Nothing Prepairs you

2012-02-13T14:31:00.018+05:30

So I walked off from nearly getting married, I walked out of a relationship that was on and off for good four years
It was like one of those half empty glasses – the irony is that I always ignored it was half empty and was quite content that it was half full
Though it was half full it was never the same as a full glass – so quite naturally it was filled with grimace, hurt , disappointment for both of us ( not just for me but for him too )
I don’t know, I was the one who was hanging on to him , clinging to the thought that I wanted to marry him at times when I was in doubt & despair
though no matter how much we fought ( he fought ) for the stupidest reasons I still dint end it – the final year was quite stable compared to the earlier 3 years that was,
where I’ve walked out of the relationship countless times but then again he somehow came around – waited from me , caught me off guard and yes I was back – WE WERE BACK

The thing is I gave it a lot of thought ( I really did before patching up last time on June 2010)

I believe, I know, that nobody leads picture perfect life’s
Everyone goes through ups and downs , so are couples
So maybe we were a normal couple ( I thought)
not quite normal compared to our friends
since we had way more disagreements
very few public appearances , sharing my world ,wanting to be tagged on things I love doing was almost non existence
& the unhappy days out numbered the days we were happy
So are these not good enough reasons to simply walk away?

maybe it was my insecurities, that made me take him back or in the end made me cling in to him in our last phase
A notion that was created within me that made me believe in “ I won’t be able to find someone else…
someone who accepts me for the sinner I am, the devil within me that no one want to put up with.
The wider my waist line became & with the increase of “Cant get in to any more cloths “ ,
My self confidence that oozed out some time back left me leaving me unattractive, unwanted
I honestly thought I wouldn’t do better than this
Yes I did
I say it out loud and proud NOW
I was been a stupid goon
I was been dumb for a year or two
I thought no one would want me
want me for the rebel that I am
and I was ready to settle
change myself completely
give up – give in

I was scared to think of not been able to share my world, age alone and lonely , I wanted to build a world together, I craved for companionship , love
share, create space, kids, plans future, a home , a nest , travel, roam, lay in the sun, day dream, rest, walk in the woods, insurances, mortgages , monthly bills

And all these expected out of the Mr wrong

To have and to hold, from this day forward, for better, for worse, for richer, for poorer, in sickness and in health, until death do us part…

But here are few inspirations , things that Ive collected for my big day .. I honestly did plan it in my head before the split..hmm not quite certain when, where, how or to whome now.. May be it might not even happen, who knows... But every girl has a dream.. of having a big day..

Grace Kelly will always be the bride I look up to...

uncut Diamond engagement rings & hammered wedding bands

Eco friendly thank you gifts

Chinese lanterns
Brides maids in Floral prints
Outdoor Garden wedding that kicks on before the sunset that goes on till late
Wedding wows or Poruwa Ceromony under a tree

Cupcake Wedding cake structure :)
Fun pic session with mustaches or Top hats for guests
Bird cage veils (dont know how to plug in to a poruwa Ceromoney)

Monologue

2012-02-08T14:52:00.003+05:30

So what…
Did you
find the missing thread..
the one you thought
that will connect
you
and
me…
“Oh really”
how sad
so no thread then.. hur..
Now what?
Ah really..
So no thread,
no connection made,
no click,
no sparks,
no nothing,
Aha you wanna move on too..

So long then
Adios
Me dio mucho gusto conocerlo

Bed time stories

2012-02-04T23:19:00.011+05:30

Here are few instances where the Fashion Industry has taken on the bed time stories that we grew up with..

Princess & the pea

Hansel & Gretel( the wicked witch is none other than Lady Gaga here)

Rapunzel

Cinderella

Remember how your parents read to you before you went to sleep? When I look back that is one of my favorite memories that I have.. How my parents use to read to me, I was lucky that I was sleeping in the middle of mom and dad till I was almost 4..( I know,How did they do that so discreetly???? I still Wonder since I've never ever felt anything queer) And every night mom use to sing nursery rhymes out of a book called "Mother goose nursery rhymes" & dad use to sing all the Sinhalese Folk poetry. Then there was a whole heap of lady bird books from Cinderella, Thumbelina, Piped piper, Rapunzel & Emperor's new cloth that went on repeat.

Our four poster bed was joined by one of the walls and that wall was embedded with a giant 5 feet x 2 feet fish tank :D.. Yes my dad is quite a Super man. It was his idea to make the room turn in to a giant aquarium - and a florescence pink colored light was lit from inside the tank (the opening to the tank was from the other room & cleaning , feeding was done from that side)So you literary felt that you sleeping with a dozen gold fishes..

It kinda looked like this but minus the corals & our bed was right next to the wall

Cocococococcooooooooo

2012-01-19T14:10:00.005+05:30

Got all my favourite songs of the band Cold play in to my crackberry & I'm going all mushy every time Cris Martin opens his mouth.. I will someday teach my kids to sing " thank you for the Music the songs I've been singing... & screech my mom loved you Martin!

From morning I've been feeling like a steaming cuppa of hot chocolate with extra marsh mellows.. with the aroma of rich cocoa & the smell of vanilla oozing out of the marsh mellows... Slurp Slurp...

But just 1 line out of all the songs caught me right out of the blue & it said
"For u I bleed my self child"

Now I don't know may be its the lessons that I learnt from the past that taught me that no one is that indispensable in life..But when in love even I do the most bizarre , unforgiving, unimaginable things..

Hides my head under those excels muttering

"Para, Para... Paradise......"

Magic for fools

2011-12-21T17:00:00.003+05:30

Would someone has to fall really deep to know if things are working out or not?

I’m sure there are some who are like me,

keeps trying harder & harder saying we must not give up/ need to give all it takes to work things out ..

who ignore all clues & signs purposely

but suddenly it hits u – from nowhere

ultimately it’s all you have been refusing to accept…

The ultimate truth that you kept on denying – what your heart always been telling you..

He ain’t in to you – or she isn’t in to you..

No matter how much it hurts..

But still you wouldn’t listen

You wouldn’t budge

you take a different direction

to tackle it

because you don’t wanna give up

you don’t wanna give in

make up your mind

this futile attempt

To win him

make him yours

but you know soo well,

that you are at the losing end

but still

you don’t wann give up

you Won’t.. give up

you burn your fingers

you fall too deep

it cuts (it cures)

it bleeds (it heals)

it burns (its desire)

its poison ( it’s a heart quencher)

Its misery (its happiness)

it’s just simply hopeless ( its hope)

its additive

it’s a drug

& it’s called LOVE

Pendulum

2011-12-21T14:16:00.003+05:30

“We should all start to live before we get too old. Fear is stupid. So are regrets.”
― Marilyn Monroe

But then I just go back and forth - on and off - alter my self - get bored - lose hope..

2011-12-17T21:35:00.003+05:30

Freedom saves, freedom heals, freedom feels, freedom makes and breaks, highest highs ,lowest lows

2011-12-17T20:24:00.002+05:30

So there is a tiny traveler inside me.. & she rebels all the time for her freedom..& after a bit of thinking & persuasion she thought of just writing down her experiences.. crude emotions, unfiltered & unedited.

I guess the right to make decisions, make plans & execute them as u please comes to everyone as they grow older, So if I recall, I wasn't really in to traveling as a child. Yes we use to head somewhere every time during our school holidays but mainly it was to the places my parents love going - Pilgrimages.. and they had a thing for the dry climate, History & archeology sooo yeah it was repeated visits to those places every year..

2011-12-04T22:48:00.002+05:30

When I sulk, I tend to do these little little things to prolong my sulkiness or get over it..

1) I take Extra long showers..
2) I sing a particular song over and over again..
3) I listen to a particular song over and over again...
4) I watch movies
5) Impulsive shopping
6) Over eat or splurge my self on good food..

Lately I have not been doing soo well..that is due to so many reasons.. But the out come has resulted to awakening of a new ray of hope & grimace at the same time..

So..This is what I have been doing for the past few days

1) I take Extra long showers.. ( YES YES YES - frankly my peeps have a time taking me out of the shower..)

2) I sing a particular song over and over again..(Linger, of cranberries is the most apt song of the moment)

3) I listen to a particular song over and over again...( again very apt - loveddd the movie and the song sung by Ryan Gosling.. & the lyrics soo beautiful..

You always hurt the one you love,The one you shouldn't hurt at all..
You always take the sweetest rose,And crush it till the petals fall.
You always break the kindest heart,With a hasty word you can't recall.
So, if I broke your heart last night,It's because I love you most of all...

4) I watch movies ( This was another sign - the movie was me...)

5) Impulsive shopping ( Yes I did to a Dior 5 color eye shadow & a gorgeous copper color Elizabeth Arden Lipper!!! Woooooaaahhhaaa!!!

6) Over eat or splurge my self on good food.. ( curtailed the desire so quite happy)

& btw..The PMSing is over.. Mellowed down, calmer, wiser & quite over the moon right now :)

PMS

2011-11-30T10:22:00.000+05:30

PMS – I need to get over you…Real badly..
It’s been days now that I’ve been suffering from these intense mood swings; quite volatile & dramatic. I think I had enough of it…
I know for certain that I don’t have to take a test or think otherwise, I am quite positive it’s not the case..
So can u please hurry up and come soon ; I wanna get done with you as quick as I can
I hate this feeling that’s stuck on my throat
Going back and forth – indecisive, regretful, blur, emotional ,stranded, Sad, pensive, Hopeful
Acting like a fucking lunatic…
I need clarity, I need a sign, I need approval that will console me but I know I am doing the right thing.. So consoling not needed too..
And I’m glad I’ve got room to breathe too – for just two months, and after that a verdict…

Happy holidays for me

2011-11-02T17:01:00.004+05:30

Taking a break & where am I visiting? India... Arrggg.. another Winter wedding in Delhi & this one I have to attend no matter how much I tell my self that I need to break the yearly India routine for the past 3 years on a row...

The year before last I went to visit my...( ummm I am actually at a loss of words..ummm lets call it the home away from home). Pune

Last year I did Nepal along with Delhi & this year it will shape up as a reunite with my bestie at her current home - Mumbai( I preffer it been called Bombay)for few days & the fun begins at Rajasthan where I roam the pink city, the blue city & the pushkar Camel festival

Hope I will come all safe, this too is done Solo , so hopefully I will find some interesting company as always..

By the way, feeling soo exhausted, sleep deprived & tiered...Ive been working day and night from last week, including the weekend & my office hours been way over 13 hours a day trying to finish my work that needs to be looked after while I am on vacation & it sucks..

Plus leaving behind home one heck of an Angry bird ( ouch I was to take the day off & spend time wid him) but howwwwww can I when I'm dumped with work before two days prior to my holidays..

h%*#*+LF%^&g@%9Xk%*^#$@%&

2011-10-07T00:24:00.002+05:30

It all make sense,
the crazy haggard double cab with Doctors logo on
Is not urs but ur wife's..
Ouch!
Now that was a bit of a blow in the head..
not quite hard but wasn't really gentle either..
Such is life i tell my self,
and shift my mind to the other open chat window...
Oh a chillum party ; hot topics of discussion spiritualism & divine enlightenment
amongst the sand dunes with camel rides, hippie firangs while couch surfing..
I'm in I'm in im soo in
the bags packed with bright sarongs, floor sweeping dresses, wayfarers, thick woolen stockings
The pink city, the blue city & the city of lakes to unravel
things to do, check lists , confirmations prior to departure
Such is life I tell my self..

2011-09-07T12:15:00.007+05:30

Shame that no one knows about this place except a few local Hikkaduwa residents who was lovely enough to introduce us to this serene green mangrove patio,

The food was so fiery & the name was so apt to what we ordered Chili pork & devilled calamari that I Absolutely loved,

wish they get more business coz most of the wayfarers who hit hikka is not aware of it or may be its the beach that they seek for... but still it's one spot u should not miss if u head down south one of these weekends

Beauty is u

2011-09-05T16:43:00.000+05:30

Timelapse - The City Limits from Dominic on Vimeo.

My new found Lover "Cat Stevens"

2011-08-26T22:50:00.004+05:30

The 1st cut is the deepest
The morning has broken
Wild wild world are all his originals later sung by various artists that we grew up with & his early 1970s record albums Tea for the Tillerman and Teaser and the Firecat both hit Triple Platinum in the United States; his 1972 album Catch Bull at Four sold half a million copies in the first two weeks of release alone and was Billboard's number-one LP for three consecutive weeks. Now that is phenomenon success as an artist any day...

The Fray - How To Save A Life + Lyrics

2011-08-25T16:26:00.001+05:30

Such a beautiful song...Brings a tear to my eyes every time when I listen to it with all my heart...

For decades srilanks claims in having one of the highest suicide in the world, most cases were recoded due to powerty

People often turn to suicide because they are seeking relief from pain ; trying to escape feelings of rejection, hurt, or loss. Others might be angry, ashamed, or guilty about something. Some people may be worried about disappointing friends or family members. And some may feel unwanted, unloved, victimized, or like they're a burden to others.

I dont know if this will help but life can sure bring you down but ending ur life is not entirely the sollotion I guess

http://www.metanoia.org/suicide/

2011-08-11T12:52:00.003+05:30

A big hug for my self and a silent prayer for things to be ok for a change. :)

In serch of a plot

2011-08-09T23:46:00.008+05:30

A world full of 69's
Forgotton
Blure

Gana

Accidental perv

2011-08-05T09:54:00.005+05:30

Yesterday evening, I had to drop by D’s place for a second, so called a 777* …
When I got in to the car I realized that it was the same driver who drove me over to a friends place once apone a time early morning.

Flashback
6 in the morning I see a crispy linen clad guy in his 30’s, a stubble that’s just right and that smell of perfume or aftershave… & he was good looking, not just that ;he was HOT!!! fuck!it was such a turn on……

And I see him again impeccably irresistible in a linen shirt and washed out blue jeans yesterday

The rain outside, the traffic, I could see his eyes and ¾ of his face from the front mirror, slipped in my earphones to play some jazz tracks saved in my phone to savor the moment ..not that every day We come across a Gorge Michael’s father figure scene

http://www.dailymotion.com/video/x17pcz_george-michael-father-figure_music

What a treat!

Reply recived for my earlier post from my bestie

2011-04-28T14:47:00.002+05:30

Hi baby…

Have started running.. hv put on tons of weight! Bothering me a lil nw.. till nw I din care….
Such a dull day! Summery HOT Mumbai weather! Usual work…. Nothing really exciting…
Reading this book called Tamas. Bought from this Book store called Kitab khana.. Another place added to our list.. its beautiful and has probably the rarest of rare books..
Feel like sitting on this lovely couch in a house tats mine and mine alone… curtains pulled, A/C on, tv on for background sound, surrounded by books, u lying there on the bed wid ur own copy of some book, chai on d table! We talk periodically and smile a whole lot, discuss the world like we on another planet looking down to Earth, giving our vishesh tippinni (hindi word)!
Hmmm also in this scene we are thin.. and there are these sexy pair of high heels from last night party that are still lying on the carpet

Wish……

Rain

2011-04-27T12:06:00.003+05:30

Pitter Patter rain drops...

1) I use to love this nursery rhyme when I was a kid, and thinking of other things associated with rains that I love to do, would be
2)to have a cup of hot "Indian Masala chai" over a conversation with my bestie - listening to 80's and 90's tape playing in the back ground and to top it a drag of wills classic menthol

3)spending a lot of time snuggled up in bed reading,
4)Steaming cups of Coffee,
4)avoiding going out temporally ; find myself to lazy too pull my self out of the house and thinks its way too cozy indoors .
5)I love the smell of the Earth after the rains
6) love to see how the trees change in to a lustrous green during the rains
7) As a kid apparently I use to love splash puddles of clear water that been collected while i use to wait for my mom to come and pick me after school - that's how some kids still remember me in school

Rondo Rondo Rondo

2011-04-11T11:07:00.001+05:30

How do we piece together the truth from different perspectives? From the multiple & diverse versions of the truth out there. The same story told in many ways. And it your choice to select what you want to believe or how you want to perceive it.

Makes me wonder how many stories that I’ve grown up with been white washed by time – whatever I believe is right is a partial truth or a complete upside down of what really happened!

In the Sri Lankan Political context – the ruling party has taken & will always take necessary measures to keep away any alienated opinion rising above them – any sign of dissimilar ideas/ if a person indicates that he has the power to change how people think & behave
Tragic deaths of Lalaith Athulathmudali, Rohana Wijayaweera, Lasantha Wickramathunga – Im not trying to justify or even going to state what they were saying to the world was right or wrong . Again for some it was the truth but for others it was not but the fundamental similarity was that they were all having conflicting ideas with the ruling party and for that they had a price to pay – their won dear life

The event of locking up SF for that matter is the same – the mysterious white van stories …are they real or is it a myth? leaping ahead of time in to another 10 decades from now, what will be our future generations think what actually happened?

What I see and what feel is that Sri Lanka is also getting there to some what a place like Rondo - an isolated dysfunctional town by the sea – where a constitute made by a handful of people or so to say few brothers will restrict freedom of speech, freedom of choice ect– gives me the creeps when I think of all the early indications of dictatorship that’s been bestowed a pone my eyes

In a different note - the Play was fantastic – It had me glued from the moment “Go”; for 70 mins I dint yawn even once unlike the other play that the Sunthra Bandandaranayake trust fund has sponsored on the theme of Reconciliation “My other history” that I couldn’t stop yawning . But then again I just have to say Hetti’s acting was brilliant on it

But Rondo – Tracy ,Mind Adventures, the cast and the crew Your getting another standing ovation! Encore

Cricket Frenzy

2011-03-30T10:18:00.007+05:30

So the Proud lion Nation has entered yet another ICC Criket World cup for the 3rd time. With a win in 1996 and a battle lost in 2007 to the same opposition - the mighty then but not so mighty now Roo's from down under , this time MY men in blue will face either the same subcontinent neighbours India or Pakistan..

All my Barat Mahan friends & acquittance's think its gonna be a Rama - Ravana battle on the 2nd Of April but this time its no time for Dashera since we will beat the shit out of RAMA

Temporary Out of my life......

2011-03-30T09:17:00.005+05:30

For my betterment only..like many things... no hard feelings or having remose what so ever about cirtain things...I knew they were anyways coming to a halt..

2011-03-18T00:54:00.004+05:30

Uuuffffffffffff!!!! Often when I have a bad days at office, the life I have after 8 ( usually the time I reach home after a bit of walking, the almost day to day bus rides sitting/standing next to a lady or squeezing my way out from an occasionally crowded bus)gets even more grayer when my beloved loves to pick a fight or else my parents decides to ruin it for me.....

Its like a domino effect; u start, she continues, let me join the fun too - one says, wow this is fun, wait up for me ..and bang, dishum,whoom wham,tish,dush -by the end of it, I'm just tired as hell,Ive got no strength to fight these crazies..

Though pissed as hell & irritated beyond words ,I just console my self by reminding me the phrase "that this too shall pass" .

& sorry ive got nothing to inspire me too lately...

Babies...

2011-03-04T13:49:00.004+05:30

Spent a lot of time with my mommy to be friend since figured she needed the company of her chikas more than ever these days..

And went shopping for the little guest who is to pop out any day now... I went mad trying to figure out what to buy since there were such adorable stuff ; moms must be getting cute attacks all the time when they go shopping for there little once

The funniest thing is that - Nooooooooo - Don't even go there.....I'm not having the slightest of idea to make babies right now. Honestly I think that my motherly instincts are still very much blunt :(

OK getting back - I am starting to notice all the baby products that were all this while non existence for me; Like yesterday on my way to this particular Cinema I just realised that adjoining to that huge darn place is another huge darn baby cloths shop on the main road it self- how the hell have I never seen this place before that's been there for a while now it seems...

May be one can say it's because of selective attention* that I have not given two hoots about babies before but anyways more to come on babies after a month or so :)

Selective attention - selectively concentrating on one aspect of the environment while ignoring other things

A feeling that my time is up...

2011-03-02T12:44:00.005+05:30

What do you do when you have the feeling that things are going to crumble down... Normally I run for cover.. When things get better, I pick up the pices thats left behind and start all over or move on..But for the 1st time I'm just getting a feeling ; what if my time is up?

Some may say your soo young but what would you do if you have the feeling that your time is up?

2011-02-21T10:09:00.005+05:30

Last year I was camping in Buttala and like we always do went to the thickest of jungles where the elephants roam and yes it was pure bliss , to be alone in the serenity of nature.
The sight of a million butterflies in the day time, and fireflies in the night, tall giant like trees and mammoth size elephants in large numbers was once in a life experience , and there was a plc we camped on some of the nights called Demodara where kumbukan and another small water way cross each other and made a perfect heaven

I guess I did blog too about it since it was one of the best trips I’ve had in my entire life http://donsunnydays.blogspot.com/2010/05/birthday-weekend-demodara-maligawila.html , but this time I skipped a 5 day camping trip again in the same areas( Monaragala, Demodara, Maligawila) when very one was busy going out station I stayed home & chose to SLEEP, channel a doctor to find a cure for my rather frequent unexplainable headaches , wash my cloths, download movies and attend another Eshantha Peries Piano recital in the Wendt :)

I am also glad that I dint go on that trip since as per my sister sorry to say this but Demodara & buttala area we camped does not belong to the mother nature ( or the frigging government) any more – it’s been , shredded to acres and sold to bits and pieces to directors and zod knows who. All u see is electricity fences around the area to keep away the elephants…. It’s sad apparently this director of MBSL leasing company is one of the proud owners and apparently this chap is damn scared of elephants so he has made a mess of the place it seems with electric fences, and some new owners have cut down 1,000 of those tall graceful trees clearing off more than 100 acres of land .. I mean why does ppl do this? That land belonged to the wild life, it belonged to the nature, why did U buy a plot where it was suppose to be the land of the elephants & put a electric fence around it coz ur damn scared of the very elephants you threw out, why cut down those trees that stood this earth for centuries! Who fucking has the authority to sell out these land AS AND WHEN THEY PLEASE??? This system is corrupt and I know I can’t do anything about IT ! and when u look at the broader picture, it just scares the shit out of me – the elephants trapped outside of their natural habitat will go and attack the innocent villages around the area, in order to find food – that’s inevitable, and those villages will kill those beasts in order to protect themselves & you can’t really blame the villagers since they can’t do anything but to keep themselves alive - everyone wants to live at least another day in this paradise or hell hole – perceive as you want … while Mr director of MBSL will be sitting nicely in his AC room in all comforts (either in office, or in his Oh soo Hosh posh Colombo or in his holiday home in Monaragala protected by electric fences or for god sake how many holiday homes might he own I wonder…..) then the whole adverse effect of cutting down trees leading to no water , no rains on time I’m sure I don’t have to tell the whole H2O cycle & O2 cycle here, u all know that now I presume ..Lol .. it’s just sad to live amongst some headless goons who can’t understand by doing all these we are killing our very own future generations yet to come. it’s a known fact that the present u know who and his relations & his ministers mint money – but how much can u consume in this life time anyways , even if u save for ur unborn generations what’s the point when they don’t have the same natural environment we are having at this very moment…

ok , “ inhaling a deep breath – coz I was a min back outraged t with anger.. but I shouldn’t boil my blood , what can I do anyways :( . I can just show my detest in this blog…

2011-01-25T17:17:00.001+05:30

If I could be like that
I'd give anything
Just to live one day
In those shoes.
If I could be like that, what would I do?
What would I do?

Shopping, more cloths but I still have nothing nice to wear...

2011-01-24T12:55:00.006+05:30

Went through my cloths , neatly kept in hangers and folded in drawers
In all different colors & textures , separated in to the occasions I wear them. Bright wraps worn during my quite frequent beach get a ways, my linens and cottons worn during camping & mainland vacations , pretty bohemian skirts , prim and proper dresses that make me look elegant for a change from my typical messiness , smart office wear that usually does not kill anyone but has given me my own identity in office and those one of a kind findings I’ve picked up from here and there….

By summing up all the tags after years and months after purchasing them ; the utility I get from them now - I am only a partially satisfied person
Even spending so much money on cloths I still sometimes feel miserable not been able to find something nice when I want to look good just boils down to how unsatisfied I am in life.

Even if I had a million bucks with me, this nature of been unsatisfied will never be fulfilled & the feeling of resentment will be left.

Then I thought rather recollected the memories I have on each instance - how excited I felt when I actually brought them ,how I tried it the moment I get back home again to reassure it’s looking good on me , and now when I try them on not almost all bring the same pleasure or that satisfaction I felt the 1st time I wore it.

Shopping has always been an activity that’s packed with excitement, I never recall an instance where I was bothered, or irritated while I picked up cloths for me, (irritate & annoyed when I need to find cloths but either never had my size, the colure I wanted or barely anything nice when I really needed to buy )

Each time I wear it, each time it goes for a wash, it gets dried and re ironed the garment loses its colure, shapeless it becomes by too much of stretching or been crinkled after a dry. Stains, ink marks, sweat patches , bobbling of material and the whole worn out look it gets after some time only makes me realize that no matter how expensive it is, everything has a lifespan, and its much shorter than u expect. And so is this life we live

Then there is this pile of cloths that I dont wear but I still dont want to be parted with. Some carry sentimental values, some out of greed and the whole notion I've casted on me that I will get back to them once again when I shed some weight...
But this time I did give some to my brother in law who went to give aid to the flood effected people in the North East :)

P.S. There is a crazy sale in Zara India and you get gathered trousers for just 990 Indian :(

2011-01-22T18:04:00.003+05:30

Was watching Tim Burtons " A nightmare before Christmas" and before that " The Corpse bride" both the movies talked volumes of life and the life after death..

Afterward I checked up on his personnel profile to see who is the lucky girl who's sharing his nest and not surprisingly he has had quite a string of affairs ; short stints, long stints depends on how u perceive things. Now how many women Tim has slept with after getting married is not my concern anyways but the idea of sticking to just ONE person for life in the Western world or be it in the Hollywood..

When I look at my parents who has been sharing ,caring & protecting each other emotionally, physically and financially for more than 26 years ; I see love, warmth and happiness in their eyes for each other even now. Trust me its not been an easy task and they have had many many bad days, countless fights, and a phase that is almost considered to be a nightmare but they survived those rock bottom days. They say time is a tool, time is a healer, and to work out a marriage you just need a lot of tolerance and patience and hope.Touchwood..

May be our parents would have been like Brad Pitt, Demi Moore if the society we live in was lenient on morals, integrity , family values & culture. We still believe in karma. Religion and values has been planted and cultivated in us and we are still afraid of the dismay of been disgraced " what will our relations think, what will the neighbors say, how will we face our parents and people who kept faith on us. The whole guilt factor still plays a part in our subconscious.

we live in a world that believes that a society grows through a network of relationships which are mutually inter-twined and inter-dependent. Every relationship is a whole-hearted commitment to support and to protect others in a group or community. Marriage plays a very important part in this strong web of relationships of giving support and protection. A good marriage should grow and develop gradually from understanding and not impulse, from true loyalty and not just sheer indulgence. The institution of marriage provides a fine basis for the development of culture, a delightful association of two individuals to be nurtured and to be free from loneliness, deprivation and fear. In marriage, each partner develops a complementary role, giving strength and moral courage to one another, each manifesting a supportive and appreciative recognition of the other's skill in caring and providing for a family.

I on the other hand never believed in marriage till I met my 1st boy friend when I was aged 19, and I had my serious doubts about a happily ever after since I had seen some real disappointments , betrayals in family institutions very close to me then.Then I fell in love and realized that I too need to make my own nest someday and keeping the faith and holding on to that nest is a real gallant thing to do.And i'm soo grateful for my parents for teaching me this , that walking away from trouble is so much easier than surviving the storm together .The beauty lies when u finally succeed as a pair , you marvel the world and you have nothing but gratitude from your kids for holding on & keeping the faith.

On the other side of the River

2011-01-19T14:09:00.003+05:30

"And What happens once One crosses the River"

Some reach the Beautiful Land where All is available,

and All is possible in the Presence of God.

Some reach the Dark Land where their guilt leaves them trapped.

Some rest for a while and then travel back.

Some never reach the bank as they deny its existence.

Truth is, as always,

You will see whatever You wish to see

On the other side of the River.

- Unknown -

Billie Holiday - Strange Fruit

2011-01-10T01:50:00.001+05:30

Southern trees bear strange fruit,
Blood on the leaves and blood at the root,
Black bodies swinging in the southern breeze,
Strange fruit hanging from the poplar trees.

Pastoral scene of the gallant south,
The bulging eyes and the twisted mouth,
Scent of magnolias, sweet and fresh,
Then the sudden smell of burning flesh.

Here is fruit for the crows to pluck,
For the rain to gather, for the wind to suck,
For the sun to rot, for the trees to drop,
Here is a strange and bitter crop.

One of the saddest songs about racism

A Blue Christmas

2010-12-19T14:00:00.005+05:30

I'll have a Blue Christmas without you
I'll be so blue thinking about you
Decorations of red on a green Christmastree
Won't be the same, if you're not here with me

And when those blue snowflakes start fallin'
And when those blue melodies start callin'
You'll be doin' all right, with your Christmas of white,
But I'll have a blue Christmas with out you.

Giving away my pups one by one..and god it hurts soo much to part with them.. And making the whole judgment of if we are giving them to a good family who will give them all the love, care and nourishment they want. It is difficult, very..

My Hippie diaries (Destination Nepal)

2010-12-18T21:51:00.009+05:30

Indian Railways

Bauda from the streets
Bauda

Changu Narayan templePotters WifeCorn & Garlic

Cloths line Baktpur
Woodwork and the Japana
Growing old together in an ancient hut

Nagarcot
Rickshaw ride back to Sanauli early morn

Hopped on a train unknown alone, befriended & conversed for more than 12 hours with a bunch of non English speaking Nepali workers (close to sign language ), hitched a car ride with 2 Nepali brothers to the Nepali border( for free), Went on a over night bus to Kathmandu in which I met ( Sat next to more like it ) a Japanese girl who agreed to share a room / expenses on food / travel costs ect and end of the day became my travel partner & a friend made for life, traveled,explored, hiked, walked almost did everything possible the budget way except for food that I dint compromise on the quality & the ambiance,took a local bus ride back to the train station with a African girl giving company , waited for 17 hours in a train station alone to take a train and realized that I've indeed suppose to travel one day earlier ( technically missed the train _ and suppose to travel the previous day) , some how came back to Delhi in one piece and without having to stand up since there was so many cute guys with chivalry and the rest remaining 3 hours after getting down from the Delhi train station is censored. And I lived happily ever after !The end .

Material Girl

2010-12-18T19:35:00.009+05:30

some ishtuff of my bestie lying around

So I went to Delhi again after 3 years...From the time I got down from the Delhi airport to the time I took the flight back to Colombo I was constantly reminded of Madonnas lyrics "I am a material girl_You know that we are living in a material world _And I am a material girl...

For some Indians its all about flashing logos of brands like Ferragamo ,Fendi, Jimmy choo shoes, Chloé ,Armani ,LV ,Miu Miu, Promod, Cavalli,DVF,Gucci, Stella McCartney, Emilio Pucci ect

For my bestie (& her flat mates) Michael kors, DKNY , CK and Mango seem to be beneath their style now and all she wear is nothing below than Channel & Dior ..

I just go meh really?

2010-10-02T00:54:00.004+05:30

OOOOWEEEEiiiiii!!!
Shoes ! Got new shoes ... got 3 pairs within a span of 3 days! Not bad hur, yes yes ... I go/ girls go freaky when they see shoes! but all were on discount otherwise would have cost me a fortune but then again I'm glad I got them

Treated my self to a Rahul Bose movie(Oh how I fancy the short Ruggerite - Bose I mean :)..and last night watched a good movie of Shyam Benegal..this particular movie of shyam , or the music of the movie haunts me even now... It just stir up such melancholic feelings within me of the days in the maha barat...those nights in our balcony gazing at a sky full of stars and sipping Nescafe , 3 girls cuddled up on a mattress lied on the floor,talking about the lives left behind, stories of ammi jann - papa jaan, trying to imitate Sanjay Dutt's way of making smoke curls while this particular music cassette playing in the back ground.

Those days during my 1st year; we only had that cassette player. We were cut out from TV, Internet ect..For us it was all about that cassette player - what went in or came out of it, and few CD's / cassettes of Jim Morrison,Def leopards, a collection of songs from Sade, cranberries, Radio heads, Goo goo dolls, Sixpence none the richer, Blur, Smashing pumpkins ,Eric Clapton,seal,Inxs & yeah how can I forget my Tony Bennett, Aretha Franklin & the whole 40- 60 music collection & 80 & early 90s song collection from Phil Collins ,Bruce Springsteen's Street of Philadelphia to the sound tracks of the movies "City of angels" & "Philadelphia"

Those days brought the best people in to my life - my friends - my roommates I miss sooo dearly now..

Back then all I yearned was to come back, how much I missed home, my ex &I couldn't wait to find a job ..hmm ..

I guess my life now seems very mechanical almost robotic compared to those few years that was full of impromptu actions. Its evident my parents seems to be jealous over my virtual life style - the time i spend on the computer when I come back home..But I know I am much better,I wish they can at least appreciate me putting a good 2 hours family time after coming home no matter how tired I am or stressed out after work.

This is not a rant neither a note of joy - its quite simple the grass is greener on the other side...

A Bitter story

2010-09-28T13:10:00.003+05:30

She use to be a very nice girl , she loved me very much long time back but now she has turned her love in to wrath & the sourness she has towards me is expressed by her dry sarcasm, misinterpretation of facts & figures ,sudden unity been best friends with the once I detest & some unpleasant stories been told of me that I in return heard..

See the thing is I can’t help her situation, wrenched one might say if they look at her through rosy framed glasses,
No place to call her own – still living on rent with parents, A divorcee at my age with a child nearing 6 , Talented & skilled but no academics to flaunt since she has eloped & ruined her good life way before her time..

May be she is sick of hearing me preach – do your CIM! Please take care of your child! he is been neglected & raised by a pair of old grandparents – spend some time with him – your either at work or having a good time with your boy friend , who tells you that he cannot marry you – don’t cheat & two time your boy friend with that bastard who is no good , you can deny but I have seen on from my very own eyes.. that other guy is no good, he is a talker but we all know his story so please take care of yourself dear girl!

I am at a point , that I love avoiding talking to you, because I know that you laugh at every word I say, my sadness makes your heart smile & my happiness you cannot stand ,my words you whisper to a witch I hate & the one sided competition of words you have to utter at each sentence I make sickens me to the very core…

So bitter friend I avoid you since no good will happen by confronting this.. you can remain as bitter as you want - & I know your mad that I don’t meet you up but I wish you will give up doing that too soon enough but I will always wish & pray that good things will happen to you my dear friend

Meh..

2010-09-25T22:38:00.008+05:30

Jimi Hendrix is the god I believe in when I see rainbows ;)
Yes I have sinned in my past dear lord & have often had this thought in my mind

I live for pleasure not for pain but skipping work ain't a good idea in my books

I prefer to tame the wilderness..

I love my girl friends

My biggest fear - losing my freedom & creativity

Me likes these pictures..

2010-09-25T21:59:00.007+05:30

Some one who understands my hair

2010-09-09T12:46:00.007+05:30

I'm just been really childish and I confess - I am feeling utterly jealous over two of my besties - my room mates from the land of kurtas, namkeen, monkeys, gods & where half of the population prefers to connect with the nature ( top of a hill, behind a small shrub or better on the sides of the pavement) when they need to pass out there human waste accompanied with a small bucket in hand to clean the remaining snippets .

I hate them ( now thats a bit harsh) , I envy them for the stylish hair cuts that they have got ... I mean why isn't there any one who can understand my hair and colour it the way I turn heads and why doesn't my 2nd relaxing turn up the way it did the 1st time - this time it made by hair look so brittle and ugly and I have nothing but bad hair days ever since my birthtday... Why cannot any one suggest a miracle man who would come make me sit, and touch my hair and put this magic ointment and make my brittle & damged hair turn back to healthy long locks? then takes out his tool box and chops it off and make me look stunning!!!!

Guess I am at a point where I am a bit scared to go and test stuff on my hair as I used to,plus every one has dispointed me from Ramani F & Johann from Cutting St.. Who should I turn to next??

Epuron - The power of wind

2010-09-05T20:06:00.001+05:30

Such fabulous creativity .Smitten.Wowowowowowowowowowwwww

Puurrrrr... smashing smexy...

2010-09-05T18:56:00.004+05:30

Sexy kittens ,Meryl Streep looking ever soo hot... Stole from Milk

Yoga

2010-09-05T18:26:00.005+05:30

I followed yoga for few months but then quit it all together since I cannon commit to anything healthy for a long time.. But looking back , those classes were the best and I was amazed at what my body could do, things that I thought was never possible , and my body finding new heights of flexibility. I don't know, though some times my limbs ached after the classes it made me so happy of all the little little achievements that my mind and body can do.. Decided to go back from Tuesday onwards . I am exited

Vrischika asana (Scorpio)
Trikonasana( the Triangle)

Dilly's creativity - Glam or sham?

2010-08-30T12:25:00.009+05:30

I use to take pride in shopping at Dilly's long time back, I use to love to walk in there small but amazingly elegant outlet at Flower Road back then having a few bigger notes in hand and going through the rich textures of cotton, silk cotton, raw silk, pure silk - Kurtis , tops, harem pants that they use to weave! Let me get something cleared before you assume that I was there biggest customer , I was just a girl who use to buy one garment at a time then, compared to the other pretty ladies who use to buy in bulk..

I miss the Dilly's Islander collection & Dilly's Voyager few of the initial collections Dilani had in her store

Then it got expanded to Dillys work - I still wear a couple of tops, skirts & over coats to office that i have bought over 2 years & still get good remarks from people " Oh nice" but lately its sad they have lost all that creativity or lost the identity of dilly's " they use to have this tag line inside which said - At dillys we take great pride in our garments we make , bla bla bla but now it cirtainly lacks the finer details that all there kurtas use to have ( be it a little design, a floral pattern in applique, emboss, cut work ect ) the perfect fits gone to the dogs while the material gone in to the products have deteriorated from there fine linen used long time to the most garish colours and textures now...

Take a look at there newest collection "What a transformation from then to now "

THEN

NOW

Arent theire latest collection the most Garish cloths you have ever seen? This cannot be Dilani for sure :(

O.k not that the entire collection is gone to dogs - I like this particular one

But still ...overall I guess they have lost it - Im sure who loved Dilly's long time back will surely agree with me :((

Sinhala Movies ; The good, the bad & the ugly

2010-08-29T21:45:00.004+05:30

Sri Lanka, mind you does produce some amazing movies that does speak volumes on social issues and tries to convey a massage to the community ; the sad part is that it lacks local people who appreciate it , who takes the effort to go and watch it when it hits the theaters. Yes most of these movies are screened at places that most of the " affluent & well off " people don't really keep a foot in. Such people stays in heavy ques that leads outside to the parking lots or may be a floor or two below the ticket counter that only shows Hollywood & Bollywood movies or cheap Sri Lankan Commercial movies. There is nothing wrong with showing Hollywood & Bollywood movies, even I watch them sometimes but what bothers me is that many of us don't appreciate what our fellow Sri Lankan makes , at least I'm glad that my parents have always been more than happy to watch what the local clan direct and produce ( be it a Cinematography or Sinhalese theater but compared to the Cinema the local drama - I mean sinhala wedika natya has a better response from the crowd , Ive always been seated at a crowded audience but then again the tickets are priced at a very nominal amount , so end of the day Manoratne, Rajitha, R.R ect just makes very little from a single show

Coming back to the Local Cinema I'm writing this after watching Bamabara walalla , We went with out any expectations but was very pleased by the out come of it, I don't want to give out review of it but i strongly suggest that as Sri Lnakans we should help our local talent , so please go and watch the movie, it's worth well worth it and mind you Mahendra Perera is brilliant in the movie. Too bad I wanted to post the trailer of this movie but gosh the only existing trailer for it is horrid, I strongly advice you not to judge the movie by that - the movie is soo much better in real :)
This movie is another movie i liked in recent times; I guess it's still on some of the theaters so you are not too late . The trailer captures the essence of the movie in this :)))

I haven't seen this movie to pass a judgment but by this shot below its startling to see how a blind person can apply eye make so perfectly , in real life having a vision that is 6/6 i still fail to do my mascara this perfect any given day, but i loved the way its been shot, the lighting is perfect ;I wish Budhi kirtisena fine tuned those little errors - I would still go and watch it for Saumya & Sangeetha

Enough of ramblings about movies I have to head back to " Fingersmith " a book by Sarah Waters & btw folks the Dancing for the gods was simply magnific <3

For all you weeping hearts

2010-08-27T10:21:00.008+05:30

Letting go of the person your entire Universe has been revolved around at one point is next to impossible..Specially when that person breaks ur heart and gives no reason for doing it ! Sigh! The Bastard actually makes you believe that it's your fault but its actually not the case..( Forget about the root cause - whats done is done, why did he do it,what was the reason? Could I've altered my self? I mean finding those answers are a real relief for US women to recover , to start our healing process BUT for them its a TORTURE so in the end we become a bunch of highly emotional wrecks )

It might be the toughest battle that you have to over come at that point. for certain, you might not see the light on the end of the tunnel , your life's never been that messier and it might look like you've hit rock bottom and there is no reason or rhyme to look forward for sunny days ... Days are extra grayer, there is a huge lump in your throat & and you have never experience such emptiness within.. there is a vacuum of all the good things in life & you actually feel a terrible pain in your heart ( For real & u really feel it).. time sits still ,every thing around u is listless and movement becomes almost numb - and u literally feel that ur life's become a slow motion black and white old film.

Looking back today I have over come " something I thought was the lowest low in my life" ( it makes me laugh for been so naive and I ask my self what was I thinking?

But with a few amazing friends, with the help of your lovely siblings, and with the your greatest treasures you have " mom & dad" you just walk pass those wretched days - with sanity! and then you see the light in the end of the tunnel, meet new people & life's not so bad then again! Don't worry you will pass those dark days and enter the sunshine land once again

But trust me there is no permanency for happiness
The things that makes you happy will makes you unhappy along the way - that's the only permanency in life

So enjoy life while the sun shines ppl & save some for a rainy day too

I like this ad - I like Dove

2010-08-24T18:27:00.002+05:30

Today

2010-08-19T12:17:00.008+05:30

A super busy day.. and I have a zillion things to do.. Been busy lately.. worked till late most of the days and yes since I bus it home ( Oh wow trust me its such a super saver - I get to spend only a fraction of what I use to pay for tuks ) & now have phone conversation in the night again the time to think and actually be creative is diminishing..

Today Dee sent me a very very creative Blog called the My Indian Summers.. Bhavna the blog owner is colourful and so chirpy - and I can so relate to her.. Awww She is such a nomad - a colourful gypsy and her blogs soooo pretty :))))))

And I'm having butteflies in my stomach - I might go to MM - some Italian drummer is playing it seems and it sounds soo orgasmic good " mind you an Italian drummer" but the only thing is that I'm going to be all by my self.. EEErrrrrrrr.. I mean going to places alone is not a big deal for me - I do it pretty often when I have nobody to accompany me (I've watched plays & movies,been to Art exhibitions ,had dinner alone so many times in fact gone to big ears gig a couple of times when it was in the Art campus) but I always camouflaged well with the surroundings.. My heart pound or I am only not in ease till the lights go off when I'm in a theatre - when the lights get dimmed its all good , I can really be me when I hit a gallery alone and when I eat alone I tend to go to the most furthest away and face a window so I can enjoy the view not the people who stares at me ..

So now a big problem MM is such a uncamouflageble place! Aaaaarrgggggggg!

Some pretty pics..Travel bug yet to bite me still though..

Write for nuts - the real reason for D on sunny days

2010-08-11T23:13:00.011+05:30

I still believe that I can't write for nuts. I can’t write anything with profoundness and simply make it look amazing like how all the other local bloggers do; make magic with words; create wonders with a few sentences and by adding a few paragraphs most of them turn things in to miracles that really deserve a standing ovation...

That’s why I really stuck to follow a very few local bloggers and a lot of international once when I started initially. Then I dint feel that bad, dint feel insecure of me not been so talented... Talented with words, may be how I think – of lacking profoundness in my system and all the HI fundu jargons that does not make an appearance in any of my posts. Compared to the rest I don’t have a philosophical out look towards life (guess it’s not even in my bones), my posts just reflect me as a very shallow & a superficial creature who does not run so deep. May be I truly doesn’t agree on that self criticism entirely – yes I do run very deep but I really think I’m not reflective enough – I don’t really put up an act here at least in this blog to be someone who I am not – I am very much a bubbly person who is happy and unhappy half the time, but I forget about the unhappy side in life very quickly - way quicker than the average/ normal people you and I bump in to every day. Must be because I really had my dose of bitterness growing up and what really made me strong was to think and be thankful of the little things that happened to pep me up on a daily basis. You become so thoughtful of the little things then; you learn that even a half a smile of a stranger brightens up your day. Those bad phases in life tought me how to erase the dark silhouettes from my memory .Master the art of forget and forgive.

Coming back to the topic, I can’t talk nor right for nuts... That’s why I started blogging really late… I always wanted to but I was just scared to admit my own flaws that I might be mocked at by a bunch of total strangers. But then again who really cares end of the day; this is a free space, as long as I don’t abuse it I can write all my silliness away. I feel like that I’m shouting from a top of a mountain range and hearing my own echo every time I post something no matter how stupid it might sound to others..

P.S - I do follow a few /may be a lot of local bloggers lately , and its all good now

Sheila-na-gig

2010-08-07T18:38:00.003+05:30

Occult,mythology , legends, gods, goddesses, witches & demons, spells & potions, herbal remedies, Ayurveda, tarot & reiki simply fascinates me..

An interesting finding of this extraordinary looking Celtic goddess found in Ireland (some parts of Scotland, Germany & England too)the word are not exactly mind and is been extracted from below reference as it is...

from The Woman's Encyclopedia of Myths and Secrets, by Barbara Walker

Carved representation of a naked woman squatting with her knees apart, displaying her vulva, shown as a vesica piscis or double-pointed oval. Sometimes the figure presented the vesica with both hands or drew it open with one. Sheila-na-gig figures appeared all over old Irish churches before the 16th century. Many were still in place during the 19th century, but Victorian prudery defaced or destroyed large numbers of them. Some have been found buried near the churches they once embellished.
Sheila-na-gig figures closely resembled the yonic statues of Kali which still appear at the doorways of Hindu temples, where visitors lick a finger and touch the yoni "for luck." Some of the older figures have deep holes worn in their yonis from much touching.
The protruding ribcage on many examples of the sheila-na-gig imitates the figures of Kali as the death-goddess, Kalika, evidently remembered in Ireland as the Caillech or "Old Woman," who was also the Creatress and gave birth to all the races of men. Celts generally protected doorways with some female-genital fetish, which is why they settled on the horseshoe, classic Omega-sign of the Kalika. In India it stood for the feminine cosmos within which Shiva ever performed his creative sexual dance, although he was assimilated to the Kalika and given her title of Destroyer.
Derivation of the term sheila-na-gig is obscure. It meant something like "vulva-woman." Gig or giggie meant female genitals and may have been related to the Irish "jig," from French gigue, in pre-Christian times an orgiastic dance. In ancient Erech a gig seems to have been a holy yoni; the sacred harlots of the temple were known as nu-gig.

1 month 1 day old...

2010-08-05T01:33:00.002+05:30

Moustache Mugs xD

2010-08-05T01:19:00.007+05:30

Was looking for these for my half bohemian, free spirited, strong willed absolutely gorgeous friend who completes me in many ways.. But had no luck.. So ended up with some thing terribly girly instead, but I'm happy I have seen her wearing it both the times I saw her after.. hmmmm may be next time..

Positive Influense

2010-08-01T21:59:00.009+05:30

I've decided to become a positive influence to my very own sinner inner self..Come to think of it,I live a life that I flaunt and take great pride in - that is soo unholly and so distant from a religion given to me by birth; the one I follow or think I'm following which is closer to my heart, where I take comfort in during difficult times..

So yes Ive decided to do a cleansing - cleanse my mind or at least try not to pollute it for 3 days - I guess one of my causal days on a Friday or a Monday is worth employing in order to give some mint to my mind to refresh it :)

So till then I play these in FB...I know it does consume a considerable amount of my spare time..

See the thing about FB is that it gives me a chance to relive my life doing things that would be never possible in real, for instance be a farmer, and live the life of a farmer, to make a decision on what am I'm gonna cutivate today in how much of a quantity, how long do I plan to wait for crops to be harvested ;is it 4 hours, 6,8,12 1 day ect.. Its all about choices and alternate costs that incurres for u do decide on what and how much and when to harvest , what tools you want..

Then on trsue ilse - its almost like u play robinson cruso in a deserted island..

Frontier ville

I am a Blonde in a green dress that lives in a wooden cottage with a redbrick chimney that is surrounded by wild flowers in midst of a forest that I deforest in order to make a living.. I have my own cattle and vegetation.. and I camp near a pond when I feel like too.. apart from this I have invested on some worldly goods like a bird bath, an iron fountain, a department store and the most preferred place I long to be - a wooden bench to sit and observe the woods when my work is done...
Treasure Isle

I guess I will always live surrounded by trees.. Out of all my friends who play this game, I guess I'm the only one who has a landscaped Island.. I like the whole feel of living in a imaginary Island that has a narrow path that gives shade to any one who takes it to enter my little hut..It's almost like a corridor that's made out greenery and tropical flowers :) then u see my wooden lodge that I've decorated with Orchids which was a bit expensive ..Lol .. then u see my Mayan table , my BBQ grill and a chilling champagne bottle :). I go fishing when I'm bored but my favorite place in here is the comfy Mayan hammock under the palms. I stretch my self in the beach lounger to get a tan while I sip my drinks under the shaded palms. I got a pond to take a dip in too.. my imaginary appearance is very athletic & tomboyish here.. I love my short crops in red :)I almost forgot im a life guard by profession and yes my boobs beat Pam in baywatch..ROFL

Farm ville

I have a hairstyle and yet again I am a red head in here.. I have a winery :)I love the bit where I have made to rest, with a cool rest tent, white umbrellas, the shade that's created by the trees that's filled with fruits,A picnic table,wine trellis and the wooden bench in the far corner in the garden for a personnel retreat after a hard days work.. The barn I live in opens up to a Zen sand pond and a red sakura tree, and i adore the flowery hedge that leads in to the rest area. I have carefully partitioned the farmed plots with hedges & walls ( Swiss floral & Oak wood). Like any one ive invested on machines to make my life easier..PS. I love the mammoth Mexican adobe gate ive got too

Eternity

2010-07-31T02:01:00.004+05:30

He who binds to himself a joy
Does the winged life destroy;
But he who kisses the joy as it flies
Lives in eternity's sun rise.

William Blake

P.S. - I find the band Bitter:Sweet très chic & love Koop for it's music...

Right now

2010-07-28T09:26:00.006+05:30

Its a perfect sunny day out side..But..

I'm having a real bad day, not that my health is in perfect shape either , what else...I am in a very awkward situation that I have put my self apone that has become a prick and it's slowly making me lose my sanity....So this is all I need to pass these few rainy days

Because of everything around me is SO gloomy and listless (sometimes the rains turn me in to a crustacean that retrieves back to her shell) I want to be in a library right now.. I want to smell the dampness of the books, rows and rows full of books awaiting to be picked up and read.. nothing like a good book and my couch to snuggle during rainy days.. and all the more better if i am intoxicated by few drops of wine

I want blueberry ice cream tooo...

I want to be in a nice warm bubble bath, to scrub all this impurity this whole erie feeling from me

and I need a vacation, I will not get English summers like my sister who is going to globe trot in a few days time.. but I'm still happy for her..

In a RnB mood

2010-07-25T23:36:00.003+05:30

Suddenly in a mood to grove to "play that funky music white boy " having a JD shot with just 3 ice cubes in it in the hand :))) AKA I'm in a R'n B mood today..

Its one of those place that have not changed at all over the years wen it comes to it's music & the familiar faces that lingers in Colombo's party circuit..

Sometimes you need a button like this..

2010-07-25T19:44:00.004+05:30

I am a knee cap jump girl

2010-07-22T19:57:00.004+05:30

I stayed up the entire night reading a book last night ; in the morning I was feeling so groggy without a proper sleep and was hurrying to avoid getting late to D world. Just as I was trying out my 4 inch black wedge sandal I was off balance and

karas

my knee cap jumped.. Yes now this is almost the 5th time this occurred. 1st time it was precisely 6 years back , I was a banker then & I just collapsed in the loo with a shooting pain in my knee and I almost passed out in pain. 2nd time was after 3 years from that instance, while I was walking through a hall and fell on to the ground like a “ Kehel kanda” and gave co workers a topic to figure out on what I tripped on that caused my fall. 3rd is somewhere in office again while 4th was when I was coming after a sea bath in Hikka when I just got up to my feet to walk the final 6 feet to the shore and a wave just crashed on me from behind and thank god when my leg went numb the water level was just on my knee length..

So the remedy for this –
Actually there is no cure once your knee cap starts jumping. I’ve already seen a dozen specialists and all they say is you have to reduce some weight which is obviously not gonna happen any time soon. I have been fluctuating from size 6 - size 10 and from size 10 - size 6 and it’s never been a constant over the past 6 years – So yes I have actually given up on even trying. Only thing that I do is I wear a knee guard for at least 2 weeks when ever this thing happens to me.

What scares me the most–
Imagine if this ever happen while I cross the road (I am pretty much a law abiding citizen who takes zebra crossings most of the time) but still what if I fall and a vehicle can’t jam the brakes on time / or may be its one of those privet busses – I will have such a grotesque death or when I swim in the ocean 50 or 100 meters away; I will never be able to swim back and I will drown to death. But I still take the risk, I still swim once a month, I take the bus on a daily basis, and I’m just not thinking of anything more excruciating than those two ways to die out of this reason.

Anyways when your times up you will die eventually, may it be while your sleeping or it might be one of those horrific final destination sort of a way( i know i know adverse effect of watching too many horror movies)

The Duchess

2010-07-20T01:51:00.005+05:30

I become so mushy during movies and I cry buckets.. Too emotional at this point.. ;Let me try and write how I felt during Duchess some other time , When my heart stops swinging like a pendulum.. I disapprove infidelity even though how much you consider me to be wild. May be I have seen the most closest to my heart go through such emotional trauma of losing the very idea of what a fathers & a mothers portrait ought to be in a child's mind. How it feels to be deceived by the only man/woman you pledge your heart and soul who betrays you with your own best friend but still feel so vulnerable and helpless when circumstances avail you with no options but strength for tolerance, mocking you with the ultimate test of patience..

Evocative - Bravo Eshantha

2010-07-19T00:30:00.005+05:30

Evocative means - Tending to bring a memory, mood, or image,

I am glad that I did put up 3 posters of Eshantha's solo concert happened today at the Wendt in my work place a week back but I happen to see no one from office, sigh.. I guess as expected there is not much of a turn up for goodness in life at D world as always..

So in the 1st half

I loved his 3rd performance "Presto by Johann Bach" followed by Claude Debussy's Reflets dans l'eau ( his 4th performance of the night) - sounded like as if I was treading the water and me figure skating... sounded even better than this..

then the rest felt like erotica.. It felt SOOO good, I was light, I was happy, and my face did glow in the dark out of sheer joy and I have no words to describe how amazing he was as always - always - always.. one person who will exceed my expectations every time I go to see him perform..

The 2nd half
Really made me believe that whatever he was playing at that moment awakened me up from a century old magic spell that made me sleep till today, till that very moment and do I need to say more..
Then he gave a closure to my enchanting night by Beethovans Moonlight Sonata..

The day ended with food just as it started off at Cricket club - a lunch date with my Ex. Took dad to the spice food festival after the concert and helped my self for some Satay.. and that's all the spice I had since it was brimming with people and never ending queue's to get food from stalls and hence my dads was yelling for spoiling his mood for bringing him there to a bunch of insensitive city dwellers

I wish I can bring that mood, relive that moment again I had from 19.00 - 21.00 hours at the Wendt on 18th July 2010..Sigh..

I sooooo envy Eshanth's girl friend at this moment! Sigh....

I love this picture

2010-07-17T21:56:00.005+05:30

I love Lilly Cole - she has such a queer face that gets captured marvelously beautiful
I love spiral stair cases - it gives a thrill to know what dwells above..
gives me a feeling that I'm about to find a secret garden..
mystical, magical & wonderful
I love this wrought iron design - kinda unconventional, a lot less boring,
a lot less spotted & looks so ancient
I love the door in the back drop
& I love coloure BLUE - It defines my state of mind always, blue, annoyed, cranky, depressed.. distant, disconnected..

Ballet..

2010-07-17T21:45:00.003+05:30

I wanted to learn ballet even as a child.. I don't know how come I missed taking it up.. Now I am too old and too heavy for that.. One thing I would do if I'm given the power to turn back time.. Sigh!

Got to be Mcqueen

2010-07-17T21:12:00.002+05:30

Check out the shoes..

From the Alexander McQueen website

Guys know Waka Waka bettah

2010-07-17T00:53:00.005+05:30

I just came back from a office get together - it was a BBQ party that kicked off pretty late in the night...and in the latter bit it got even better.. every one was sloshed and was in the dance floor and the sight was hilarious.. all the guys in the dance floor(and btw these ppl are such geeks in real life, all katubadda uni engineers who are fully qualified with CIMA and ACCA now doing MBA at PIM which is really really tough who doesn't get deviated even if a bomb goes in the same floor when they are working) was dancing to shakiras waka waka and man they moved their hips better than Shakira!! funny all the guys knew the dance sequel - meaning I'm wondering how many times they have watched it over and over again since they knew all the exact steps/ the moves of the song!!!!!! it was super crazy and me and my girl friend just stood dumb struck watching them trying to out beat one another...

I remember when I was little I knew all the moves and groves of this song :)

I did know all the steps of this song as a kid and did dance to it very time it got aired on TV

and my cuz got grounded for a week by trying to imitate the dancer in a fringe hikini in this song when we were little

The Gulf Oil Spill : Cartoons that make you think...

2010-07-15T22:34:00.006+05:30

The numbers are scary and as per the internal BP documents, released by Congress on June up to 100,000 Barrels,up to 4,200,000 Gallons ,up to 16,000 Cubic meters is leaking per day... the adverse effect is on the marine life and wonder why every one is mute on this?

Wishful thinking...

2010-07-12T03:11:00.039+05:30

Now some of them I already have ..
some of them I long to have...
Thinking of a home,
that I hate to live alone
but love to put up
with these things I have picked up ,
or will pick up some day
from where I have roamed,
and where I pledge to roam
by sailing over the seven seas..

Trees, more trees, and a house by the woods
Large windows & window beds
Japanese wooden sliding doors, wooden beams & Bonsai

Mexican Woolen rugs
Vintage Leather chairs
Mosaic table tops and Terracotta Pots
Cane furniture

Colonial four poster beds with drapes & Antique Indian doors

Terracota & Cobble Stone floors

Zapotec Arts & crafts and Indul Vally Artifacts

Brass Natarajas & African Masks

Balcony gardens

Colonial wrought iron balconies and railings

Hanging Chairs

Cocoon hammock beds

Wind chimes & Hanging brass oil lamps

Works of Laura Gascogne, Eric Zener,Rachael Haas

Final bet: Oracle Paul the Octopus picks Spain over Netherlands to win W...

2010-07-11T01:23:00.001+05:30

Paul has predicted , any one up for a bet?

Fire burning on the other end...

2010-07-10T23:33:00.014+05:30

There is something smoldering smexi about the below fashion editions and my personnel opinion, these girls look smoking hot with a smoke in their hand :)
Tatjana Patitz

Gemma Ward

Linda Evangalista

Christy Turlington

Alek Wek

Naomi Campbell

Cindy Crawford

Kate Moss

Kohomada Kama? Athi wishishtai Sir...

2010-07-10T20:40:00.007+05:30

Now I hate stinky politics but this photograph and the joke made out of it ,is so damn funny! I couldn't stop my self cracking up when I saw this.. I think this little act of Wimale ayya to save the sovereignty of our country was tarnishing our image Internationally.. But the best part is that he calls off his protest carried out till death as soon as the President comes to visit him! Buhahaha buuhahahaa!! What happened to ur patriotism WW?

Captain Haddock's curses, insults and exclamations

2010-07-10T02:18:00.001+05:30

Captain Haddock's curses, insults and exclamations

I grew up with Tin Tin as a kid and was strongly influenced by my mom since It was one of her favorites growing up too... We both still rave and laugh hysterically when we read it even now as if it's the 1st time and are proud owners of having the entire collection in our library

Dang!

2010-07-09T21:33:00.007+05:30

It’s so weird, I have always noticed that whenever I am single and ready to mingle the cupid seem to be miles away and not around to hit me with an arrow but the moment I commit myself to someone… Dang the entire universe seem to hit on me, from hot bods to, animal activists to, environmentalist, to freelance photographers, film makers, lawyers, Bankers in Single status, divorced, married, younger men to all the forbidden apples just plunge down like meteorites.

Now I don't want to comment on what sort of a relationship that I was in the past...But I guess single-handedly neither "Passion" nor "Intimacy" and let me add a third to this "commitment" alone can move mountains ...

Ubermodels in the 90's

2010-07-04T23:00:00.009+05:30

I'm just munching down a bowl full of salad, made to a special recipe of "moi" containing iceberg lettuce, chopped basil leaves, chopped pears, two spoons full of yogurt and a few drops of vinegar & lime ( you can use french salad dressing instead of vinegar and lime if you want) and today just threw in a half of a mango and it tasted grate - way better than I imagined it would be - I was been a cynic , thought it might spoil the whole taste.. My main ingredient that i use in all most all my salads ( even if its not even a usual ingredient used to make that particular item) is missing in the racks of my neighborhood supermarket for the past few weeks , i can go crazy with BLACK OLIVES, and it taste great when its added to any salad..

So while I was just robotically gulped down what I made by my self , I was just looking at few Vogue magazines and the 90's urber models in the cover pages who were were bigger than super models at that era. The fashion world had never seen such a display of beauty and power, and probably won't again. What I gather is that the new generation of young models nowadays lack personality and uniqueness ( except for few like Heidi Klum, Kate moss, and even if she is not so super love the quirkiness of British model Lily Cole

Cindy Crawford, Tatjana Patitz, Helena Christensen, Linda Evangelista, Claudia Schiffer, Naomi Campbell, Karen Mulder & Stephanie Seymour.
"The Wild Ones" by Peter Lindbergh, 1991.

Naomi, Linda, Tatjana, Christy & Cindy, by Peter Lindbergh for British Vogue, January 1990.

Stephanie, Cindy, Christy, Tatjana & Naomi. Herb Ritts (R.I.P.), 1989.

Getting back to my salad , hope n pray by doing this sacrifice of skipping a solid meal in the night, I can at least squeeze in to a size 4 with this colossal effort by me :)

You made me cry Argentina

2010-07-03T21:34:00.004+05:30

So my favorites’ in the FIFA 210 is going home tonight with a pathetic performance and a humiliating defeat of 0-4,

The boys in blue & white stripes were amazing throughout the tournament and the Deutsche boys were equally strong opponents with young blood in the team... But the sad part was that today Argentina dint even give a bloody fight for my money - a bet I lost for my sister and good heavens it was just a Neutrogena face wash I have to buy her.. I'm glad we dint raise up the bets for an LCD T.V. hahahahaaa... that was my brother in laws idea but even if it was the case I would forfeit the contract like a real loser..Who's got the money to buy LCD T.V these days man

Anyways my 22 year old heart throb Lionel Messi did let me down with bruises and the only thing remaining to do is switch my loyalty to Schweinsteiger(Bastian) who’s got such a damn hot nazzi ass..

The big ears gig at Horton place

2010-07-01T23:51:00.002+05:30

Kudos!! brilliant, wowzer, encore !!!I felt like this for exactly 1.30 hours today.

I feel ecstatic when ever I listen to Eshantha play and when Thriloka spins magic around me and today all by my self, I felt like checking out the Big Ears Music series happening just hop skip and jump away from me work place and I'm so glad that my walk from Alexandra place to some where closer to coffee bean was soo worthwhile since it just lifted my spirits up!

1st half was an amazing Karnatak Music session included a mrudanga player from Jaffna and this lady violin player made such sweet music to the ear followed by another beautiful North Indian music piece done by a uni student- then I was dumbstruck by the sheer intensity of the performance of Kuma De Silva in keyboard, this really cute double bassist from the land of kiwis who's so small that his double base was thrice as big as him but I adored the fellow and the ever soooooooooooooooo drool drool drummer Sum Suraweera - OMG that drummer is from out of space! He is soo talented and the entire while when these three were making merry I felt like I'm swimming ( one of the things I love doing the most - swim) , I felt light as a feather and floated high up in to the sky and yes from now on every other Thursdays with friends or alone ( like today) I will march my way down to no 46

The Chordettes - Lollipop (Squeak E. Clean & Desert Eagles Remix)

2010-06-29T00:56:00.002+05:30

Just been dancing to this song ever since i found it from the movie whip it :).. Landon Pigg looks like a carbon copy of Totti - my best friends ex and surprisingly the character portraits a singer a song writer which Totti is in real life too... If she ever sees this movie, I'm sure she will not come out of another melancholic state for weeks.. She still gets drawn in to the guy just like a magnet even after years of separation which is true in my case too... We both are way over our 1st exes but still... there is a bloody still there :(

Does Jazz makes a woman sexy?

2010-06-27T05:10:00.002+05:30

It sure does make me feel that way...

One of these days

2010-06-27T04:47:00.002+05:30

I swear, one of these days i will run away from home... No its not that i'm planning to " handapane panala yanna " with a cute hunk , my worst fears are coming true , i'm cornered by my parents who loves to play tag team to give me a hard time and almost in the brink of naaaaaaahhhaa not that.. hope not that they will not push me to such extent.. I don't know why my younger sis couldn't stay for a bit longer with us, then all their aggression, their frustration and disappointments were taken on both of us , not just collectively on me as now.. Giving it a try with my Ex but he is still been a jealous ass and feels likes nothings changed for good between us, so how will i ever gonna stand tat forever.. Wow almost feeling like I'm jumping in to a cauldron of boiling hot water on my own free will... Now hows that for thought..

I Don't Wanna Dance - Lady Linn

2010-06-26T20:59:00.000+05:30

So we sang this song ..all the way up to the sandy sunny shores and back

I call this cute

2010-06-20T17:44:00.011+05:30

Agenda Of the Day

2010-06-19T09:09:00.002+05:30

fashiontv | FTV.com - 'Beauty in the World - Macy Gray for The FIFA Worl...

2010-06-18T20:32:00.000+05:30

In love with e shoes, e shades n e dresses!!!! I LUURRVVV FTV!!! n Macy GRAy U ALWYS ROK GURL !! Love n Peace

Crazy Ass

2010-06-16T00:13:00.006+05:30

I’ve met a man years back that is incredibly arty, distinctive and irresistibly hot; when he opens his mouth he believes and have faith on very little word comes out of him...
He is a real nomad, calls himself a comrade of the poor, passionate, a real flirt , a mad genius, an Italian stallion minus the Italian part but he is from Syria
He is unique and without any effort he stands out in a room full of men and if you see him once he sure will carve a memory forever. Gives me the notion that he is a wild beast who needs a lot of taming in the bed, Tsk tsk
Born to a Syrian director /cinematographer dad and a lawyer mom this one of a kind half crazy, photographer who dwells in the slums , sleeps in the streets of Delhi to closely observe his specimen that he calls his dear friends says he misses me once in a while when he calls me

I wish my daddy was rich

2010-06-13T19:37:00.007+05:30

Depressed, found the most ideal place to spend a vacation, and the best of the deal is that the hotels are way cheaper than our 3 star hotel prices but to get there the cheapest air fair is USD 980 , ranging up to about USD 3000 - few at 1710, another at USD 2100!! Tat sucks :( Life's a bitch and i want to work abroad to earn all of that money to bust my hard earn cash on a yacht cruise :)) smell ma sweet sweet dollars biatch :((

Playing hard to get hur?

2010-06-10T01:56:00.002+05:30

So you've decide to play hard to get hur? For your information , I get tired pretty soon , so keep playing and it's you who's at a cost.

Argos Panoptes

2010-06-06T20:55:00.005+05:30

It’s sad, I often see innocent naive people been bates of big fish (dark and monstrous individual with vicious deeds). May be its the situations that make them hopelessly vulnerable to pray or may be its that they are super nice that they act dumb most of the time thinking that no harm will come for those who does good in life. The mighty use the handicaps to clean the messes they make without their hands getting dirty. It’s the same, now and how it was then, even during the times of Zeus

The legend says that Zeus was caught red handed with the Nymph Io when they were in the act by Hera; the god quickly transformed his lover to a white heifer (a white bull sort of a thing) but Hera was not easily deceived, like all women she smelled something fishy in the air and demanded her husband to gift her the heifer and ordered Argos Panoptes who was a hundred eyed giant to guard the animal from Zeus. (The transformed Io was actually Argos sister but the giant dint know about it) Zeus sent Hermes to rescue his lover by slaying Argos and Hera rewarded Argos for his service by placing his hundred eyes on the tail of her sacred bird, the peacock.

What bothers me is that a poor old giant got his head chopped off because he had to keep / stop an equally horny bitch getting laid by some guy with mighty powers who use to get a mighty erection at a sight of her or for that matter any good looking v-gina

Adverts

2010-06-06T18:50:00.004+05:30

This has so much of meaning - a very humorous ad against coke - with the theme "Coke destroys things beautiful "

Birthday weekend - Demodara, Maligawila, Monaragala,Okaampitiya

2010-05-31T16:08:00.009+05:30

Pre and Post birthday celebrations was amazing and I think this year was the best so far for this decade.. So I am a very happy 20 something year old now..

We had 2 days off right after my birthday so went on camping for 4 days to Okkampityiya, the place we camped, in the midst of a dense jungle in the Monaragal district was called Demodara, passed a few ancient ruins like Kabiliththa, Maligawila temple and took the route awisawella, Udawalawa a long 9 hour journey including a one and half hour dirt road expedition to reach our campsite.. the woods were amazing, the trees reached a bout 80 - 100 feet long easily and had a green canopy on the top, and the camp was in walking distance to the Kumbukkan oya..
This is the crew who took part in the annual Wesak getaway - new faces keep on adding and the team had quite a few old faces too

The campsite

Activities lined up 4 days

It was a sheer bliss to take a dip in the river flowing down the campsite, and the river banks were full of butterflies.. the place we camped was infested with zillion butterflies, most of them were white in color , yellowy ash, a big brown , orange with brown spots were a familiar site too ..
We went in search of unseen hidden beauty, passing through the most virginal places that spot the eye.. the dirt roads, the gravel roads that no man trek, the land of wild elephants and the forest gods and goddesses and strange myths ,folk tales & beliefs was plain magic

Arrrrgggg!!!

2010-05-24T01:28:00.003+05:30

It reminds me of this particular instance where I use to scream in desperation and out of sheer frustration " is it in yet, is it in yet" at a particular sport I played.

It's the same now with getting a mobile number right or end result" an SMS needs to be deliverd to a far away land - we message each other on a social network and the conversation follows as

Girl : Did u get it?
Boy : No not yet - try this way and see
Girl : Did you get it now? (in desperation)
Boy : No I dint get,lets see try this way (another desperate sigh)
Girl : Did u figging get it? (shrieks)

A bolt from the blue

2010-05-23T23:40:00.004+05:30

I was on the phone with my bestie,at the same time I was receiving another call - it was on call wait and when I checked to see who it was, I gasped the words "OMG" - my best friend later pulled my leg saying that my OMG reaction was as similar to a reaction if I was receiving the call from SKR ( I'm not particularly fond of him, but yes I would have choked if it was Johnny Depp)

The missed call was from my EX - my heart skipped and sank at the same time, I knew he would've been disappointed to see my phone busy, it was laying idle all these days and he had to call me the moment I'm on a call with her , my bestie was telling me not to call him, I've not made a single call ever since he said he doesn't want to be in touch wid me after we separated.. I get wounded every time I speak to him, but its was still o.k.. I never tell him how jealous I become when he goes on about his new found female friends ( I know he would be so happy if he knows that how I really feel for him still and he will be reassured there is still hope for him) He was the best guy friend I ever had( actually he comes first from a list of a Yemeni, an Ethiopian,a Sudanese and a Kenyan)

But I still called him anyways - and the conversation just poured in, just as always .. we yapped endlessly , he was telling me what he was up to all this while, and I was filling him up with mine, just like how it was when we were getting to know each other.. He wanted to wish me for my birthday and yes he did it two days prior still its fine since I dint expect even a call from him this time.

I felt good, he still loves me,and I hope he will be there for me for a while too - but I will not take long to go back to his arms again this time, I hope when I return back it will not be too late, just as i missed tat green dress at odel( it was sold out wen i went back to buy it with money in hand and a smile across my face)

Just wanted you to know...

2010-05-23T01:22:00.002+05:30

Finding Neverland - Piano Variation in Blue

2010-05-22T23:10:00.000+05:30

Isn't this just magical...

Printed skin

2010-05-17T20:13:00.000+05:30

I have too many fetishes (including feathers, bows, handcuffs, whips,stilettos,fluffy bunny tails but lets not get diverted now shall we )and one of them are stockings - i find them to be absaloutly girly,flirty and fun and always wanted to do a small number on it ( found the perfect pics too)

Love the roses

Yummy heels

In love with the red

Pitter-patter rain drops

Models know how to

<3 the whole outfit, n the tan shoes

My Sundays

2010-05-16T11:58:00.000+05:30

"A picture is worth a thousand words"- A Chinese proverb

I feel just like this on Sundays - happy, dreamy n me my self and I in the woods
I like to keep it saved just for me... and they start up pretty slow, after a very long and a peaceful sleep , while I have a fresh brew of black coffee I listen to my fave records of Tony Bennett,Sinatran,Ella Fitzgerald,n Louis Armstrong ..Yes its all Jazzy jazzy jazzy and I day dream for hours if my thoughts get diverted from my reading.Time slips soo slowly with a couple of naps in the middle, some quality doggy time and getting my hands dirty with my pastime gardening.Then its just another manic Monday... Fret

Bucktooth in Loveeeee

2010-05-16T11:39:00.001+05:30

May 15th - The International family day

2010-05-13T22:14:00.001+05:30

My friend is busy getting ready for the International family day, she said this over a phone conversation today, it made me take some time out from my chaotic work schedule and think what family really means to me

O.k family for some of us is the single most precious obsession in life , to be loved unconditionally surpassing your flaws, to be accepted and be loved no matter how unreasonable we are at times without rational, but still be loved anyways.. When you think for a moment about unconditional love, a love which has no expectations of anything in return ,the only time I have experienced of such pure love is when ever I am with my mom , may be my dad too..

May be I will be the same - just like my parents,wanting the best for my child, trying to make her a confident, brilliant, intelligent & a considerate individual to the society

This gives me hope to go on.( but still keep single parenting as an option but I really think its unfair for a child, to grow up without a one parent - its quintessential for a child to have a mom and dad to grow up with and the love and the caring of both parents )

The Apple of Discord

2010-05-10T23:24:00.001+05:30

The Trojan War has its roots in the marriage between Peleus and Thetis, a sea-goddess.Peleus and Thetis had not invited Eris, the goddess of discord, to their marriage and the outraged goddess stormed into the wedding banquet and threw a golden apple onto the table. The apple belonged to, Eris said, whoever was the fairest.
Hera, Athena, and Aphrodite each reached for the apple. Zeus proclaimed that Paris, prince of Troy who was thought to be the most beautiful man alive, would act as the judge.
Paris agreed to act as the judge and Hera promised him power, Athena promised him wealth, and Aphrodite promised the most beautiful woman in the world.
Paris chose Aphrodite as she promised him that Helen, wife of Menelaus, would be his wife. Paris then prepared to set off for Sparta to capture Helen amidst of persuasions against him of such action,
In Sparta, Menelaus, husband of Helen, treated Paris as a royal guest. However, when Menelaus left Sparta to go to a funeral, Paris abducted Helen (who perhaps went willingly) and also carried off much of Menelaus' wealth.
In Troy, Helen and Paris were married.

This occurred around 1200 B.C. (Wood, 16).

Ze PR

2010-05-10T03:47:00.000+05:30

In my office the annual (PR) Performance Reviews are taking place . I feel like this every year by the end of it, LMAO

Tattoos are art too

2010-05-10T01:48:00.001+05:30

Tattoos are art too - Its not only for punks and rockers ( N thugs in where i come from)
More than that - I love the stories behind them, here are few i stumbled a pone while i was searching for an inspiration for my 2nd :)

Told my self that there will be no more but ;)

Only reason I like to count my steps <3

”What matters most is how well you walk through the fire” charles bukowski.
amazing quote, amazing book.

On the edge

Le petit prince

Work done by Sarah Schor @ Red, hot and blue in Edinburgh. Really pleased with how everything turned out.

In memory of Elliott Smith.

My hand writing on my middle finger. I’m a pastry chef and work with my hands everyday, I just want a reminder that I get to do what I love and that God has blessed me more than I could imagine.

By Todd Noble during a guest spot at La Main Bleue (Mons, Belgium, March 2010)

Bark bark bark

2010-05-04T00:24:00.000+05:30

Was on a boru sickie, n have never taken boru sickies ever too.. just to stay at home..

In a phase where I am not motivated to do anything, not feeling creative, aint studying, doing anything productive,

Wanted to do my bedroom in green, went and inquired about this chair i love the sheerer green in it and thought i will hang fishie photo frames ( 6 of em) of me and my buddies and keep some Paradise Road bubble glasses in green with candles inside ( it will glow bottle green in the night when i light it up in the dark)and yes i Will hang some back n white pics framed - and yes that gonna be my new room - may be i will throw a new coverlet too( the one i use is old) and may be some peppy green cushions made out of "renda".. Excited but im broke again

i hear my dad yelling, he has to yell like a dog all the time, i hear my self increasing the volume of what i am listening to , on the comp and yes hurriedly taking out my ear plugs too to listen to my play list in my phone. I just get agitated at times , I really do - i was the peace maker at one point ( for a very long time), but now i have given up on it, let them solve it,ppl need to grow up, pull up there socks.By the tone of it, its not soo serious or violent at all - things have been mellowed down now, its like this for a long time but still he has some thing to shout at, some thing to scream like an idiot